TUMBLR HAS TAKEN OVER BLOGSPOT.

REBLOGGING = LIFE.

SORRY ABOUT THAT.
LOVE YOU.

Jordan, x

Do you know, mister?

We are all growing up, growing apart. We chop and change everything, from who we are best friends with, to our emotions towards another. People who I’ve been with lately, are all just so nice. They have made me realise, I might’ve made a mistake. The mistake of never sticking with my normals, not becoming apart of them. Sometimes with not being with them very long, I don’t fit in. But I will get there. I love it with them. It’s great.

From Tumblr

I feel so lazy doing this, but I actually thought this was an okay post!

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Under The Sheets.

Because time will tell us nothing, I’ll take a chance on something. Let’s be impulsive. Personality is your wonder and image is your thunder. We will form a syndicate of juggernauts. Be destructive in conformity, inequality and falling under the sheets. Put your heart in to everything and use your creativity in everything. Live your youth and believe in love. Live freely, but use your time wisely.

I love it.

Gayest post ever.

Jordan, x.

HiDur!

"I hate my melodies, they're all the same, but I can't get them out of my head, oh."

I haven't blogged in a while.

I don't have much to write, my writing has gotten really bad lately.

I need some inspiration...

Something to happen, something awesome to happen,

something like.

AMAZEMENT.

I need some form of an actual action of happiness or sadness,

of excitement or nothingness.

Jordan, x.

haha!

Anyway you want it, that's the way you need it!

I sort of love this song. I am currently listening to the Glee Version!

I am too cool, way too cool.

If anyone does actually read my blog, have you realised my posts are not a lame and depressing any more. It is because nothing has happened to fuck shit up in a while. It's good. Very good. I have also grown above to subtle messages in my posts, no matter how annoying people are, I don't any more. Mainly because I can't be bothered. Life is good.

All I need now is a beautiful place, that I can visit and that not many people know about. I would take a book and write down my thoughts. I would take a camera, to capture the emotions and atmosphere of the place I am. My iPod for the soundtrack to my days. I want to drop the stress I will have off my shoulders and my leave everyone behind. I want somewhere like this. Somewhere only I know.

Strength deficiency.

I love speaking my mind, any one does. Not exactly speaking your mind in a rude way, but if something does happen I will tell someone it doesn't work with me. I don't do enough though.I've come to realise it causes arguments, pissed off people and shows the weak from the strong. I am not the strongest with my emotions at all, but I stand tall in what I want.

Jordan, x.

Be mine.

"and now you're gone, it's like an echo in my head,

and I remember every word you said,

and you never were

and you never will be mine."

Jordan, x.

firework.

"Baby you're a firework, come on let your colours burst!"

- Katy Perry.

Don't ever feel like you're not wanted, you will always have you highs and lows, but whenever possible; burst out, show your true colours and live while you can. Act on impulse and show the world up!

But as all fireworks, we all need to come back down to earth, calm ourselves and recreate our thought process.

Everyone needs to have their alone time, and for there rest before they burst again. No matter how long it takes, I'll be here waiting.

Jordan, x.

Consider.

I'm considering quitting this challenge,

it's so boring.

I also can't be bothered getting told what to write a blog about.

It's rude.

Haha, I think I will probably just write one when I can be bothered or I'm bored.

Kay thanks bye.

Jordan, x.

Day 12.

My Best Friend

Jade Readman,

sister,

best friend.

Probably the only person I could trust with my life.

Jordan, x.

Day 11.

My Definition of Love; (relationship love).

LOVE. LOVE. LOVE.

My thought on love is that it can be either the biggest waste of time, or it can a beautiful, unimaginable feeling you just have, that surrounds you, keeps you awake at night, puts your thoughts in to a mode where you just can't get that certain person off your mind.

I have never experienced it, I don't know what it would be like. But when I see old couples that you know that they have been together for years, you can't help but just think, I hope I will be like that one day; in love with one person, that you can't get sick of, that you don't want to leave there eye sight and you never want them to leave your side.

I think the best thing about falling in love with someone, as they fall in love with you is that you know they love you back.

It's a word that shouldn't be thrown around and attacked with force, the delicacy of love is a wonder. It should be simple, beautiful and all around goodness.

Define ; Love - beauty of two human beings that make an amazing, invisible atmosphere, between the them. (L)

Jordan, x.

Day 10.

My Dreams

The dreams I have, are not just my minds creativity/mental insanity mixing together to freak me out, but some of them actually happen. I know that may just sound completely stupid, but it's crazy, because I think I swear I have seen this before, and it's not deja vu.

They are sometimes wonderful, they are sometimes horrible, they give me ideas, they break me down, they keep me awake, they make me want too sleep, just too see one of my own insanity at it's best.

I love dreaming. It puts me in a world where anything can happen. I control my dreams, I believe in dream theory and stuff. It is rather crazy. But I love it.

What happens in my dreams, I can't describe. That is why I love them so much.

I have no difference between a nightmare or a normal dream, they are all mixed in to one.

If something does go wrong, I wake up and say, it was just a dream, and slowly with the solitude and darkness I am in, slowly decrease back down to the deep sleeping stage, preparing to dream once again.

It's that one figment of my imagination, I want too come true.

Jordan, x.

Day 9.

My Favourite Birthday

Favourite birthday aye.

I've had fourteen, my fifteenth is tomorrow.

When I was little, when people sang happy birthday to me, I cried because I was too shy.

I hated peoples eyes on me.

I have loved all of my birthdays, I wish I could remember my first, second, third and fourth.

I like my birthday, but I like my family's and good friends more.

Jordan, x.

Day 8.

My Favourite Memory

I don't really know.

I have many favourite memories, doing many different things.

I love Christmas, with my entire family.

As Christmas should do, it brings us all together.

Cheesy I know. But still, I love it. I always will.

(L)

Jordan, x.

Day 7.

My Goals.

Yes, goals...

I think I have one certain goal;

to live a long and happy life, without the thought of others affecting what I think and do.

Jordan, x.

Day 6.

My Favourite Place

My favourite place. I would be somewhere new every time.

I like exploring.

Probably somewhere I can be alone.. Solitude is bliss. All I need is an iPod, a exercise book to write in and a bit of sun but windy at the same time.

A park, the beach, a lake, a river, a dam.

Somewhere nice.

Jordan, x.

Day 5.

Yes I may of missed a couple of days of doing this,

but I'm still doing it!

My Day

My day was uneventful, it pissed down with rain. Nobody was really at school, everyone decided to go to the ekka.. fun. I had History first, it was bludge. Then first break. Then drama, it was fun, Siobhan and I played on the laptops and filmed videos of us singing a song from 'Bratz' and us dancing around. 'Diva what, diva who, diva where, that's me!'. Procrastination. Then I had dance, we polished our dance piece up, and filmed our video draft. I was in so much pain and covered bruises I couldn't do the good floor sections properly. It was annoying. Then it was lunch time. Then I had maths. It was good, we barely did anything because no one was there. We learnt about business percentages, my favourite, they seriously are, I love business maths. It's easy. Then it was home time! I walked home with my best friend, in the rain and ate lollipops. It was good because I hadn't seen her in like a week. I got home, chilled, stretched so my back wouldn't hurt. Ate. Msn. Facebook. Twitter. Daily Booth. (L) wonderful.

In conclusion; to sum up my day it was BLUDGE.

Jordan, x.

Day 4.

The Siblings

Abi Readman, 19.

Jade Readman, 17.

They are wonderful. They help me with everything possible. They have taught me how to become a mature 14 year old, soon to be 15, and how to realise a good person. They are practically my best friends. (L)

Jordan, x.

Day 3.

My Parents

Mum ; Carol Ann Readman. Best cook in the world, currently a nurse.

Dad ; Andrew Michael Readman. He still spikes his hair up at the age of 43. Currently a house instillation inspector.

I love them. :)

Jordan, x.

Day 2.

My first love. Laugh Out Loud.

My first love was the very first Minstrel(English chocolate pod type thing)I ever ate. I love them.
It was amazing, crispy, light chocolate on the out side and creamy, amazing chocolate on the inside.

They amaze me. Get them for my birthday in 15 days okay?

One day I might love someone as much as I love Galaxy Chocolate Minstrels. (L)

Cutest food ever to be created. (L)

Jordan, x.

Day 1.

Introduce myself; Rokay!

Hey. I'm Jordan, and I like to party. I'm fifteen. Year 10. Single. Pom. Lived in Perth, now in Brisbane. Creativity is my thing. Dance. Drama. Writing. I edit photo's and I love music. I don't have a specific taste in it, but I love indie/rock genre's. I wear cardigans, shoes with holes in them and a very special striped jumper. I'd like life if we didn't have to wear pants. I'm starting to become the stereotypical kid now that everyone wears cardigans and beanies, I don't enjoy it. But hey! It's the only type of clothing that actually suits. When I can see myself in the mirror, I will play with my hair until I think it's right. I don't like sports, I'm highly uncoordinated and I will annoy you until you feel like killing yourself. I wish I could do a lot of things which I know I will never do. People don't like me. I tell the truth too much. "If you can't handle the truth you will never make it in the modelling industry." - ANTM. I love Lady Gaga. I am a little monster. I forever will be. I will keep my Pokerface on while in a LoveGame when there's nothing else I can say. Make me laugh and I will love you forever. Do me wrong, you will lose me.
Read my other posts, they might interest you.

Jordan, x.

hey hey new challenger has arrived.

30 Days.

Day 1. Introduce Yourself.

Day 2. Your First Love.

Day 3. Your Parents.

Day 4. Your Siblings.

Day 5. Your Day.

Day 6. Your favourite Place.

Day 7. Your Goals.

Day 8. Your Favourite Memory.

Day 9. Your Favourite Birthday.

Day 10. Your Dreams.

Day 11. Your Definition of Love.

Day 12. Your Best Friend.

Day 13. Your Beliefs.

Day 14. Your Fears.

Day 15. Your First Kiss.

Day 16. A Moment in Time.

Day 17. What You Wore Today.

Day 18. What’s In Your Bag.

Day 19. A First.

Day 20. This Week.

Day 21. Something That You Miss.

Day 22. A Moment In Time.

Day 23. What You Ate Today.

Day 24. What You Wore Today.

Day 25. This Month.

Day 26. Something that Upsets You.

Day 27. Soemthing That Makes You Feel Better.

Day 28. What Makes You Cry.

Day 29. Something You Regret.

Day 30. One Last Moment In Time.

I took this off Tumblr, but because Tumblr licks hairy ball sack, I'm going to do it on my blog. Blogger, the best of them all.. :)

Jordan, x.

CAPS.

Lately I've done a lot of thinking, a lot of realising. It really doesn't do well. I have a fear of responsibility. The future is scaring me. I don't want year 10 to finish. Miserable right? Chiddy Bang says 'I ain't ever growing up' and I agree with him completely, I don't want to grow up, because do you know what comes with growing up? Maturing, Real world and the worst of them ;

R E S P O N S I B I L I T Y.
That means, Uni/Tafe/Work Experience and a job. It's not the job that worries me, it's the university side of it. I don't even know what to do, and I'm expected to have a slight idea in three weeks. No. No. No. No. I can't do that. I can't really do much.

Last Wednesday; we got given a book that shows these university's and there courses offered and pre-requisites involved too get in to them. I've never been so scared in my life.. It was horrible to actually think that. In two and a half years, I will be waiting for my OP/Ranking. It's not a long time. Year 8/9 and the part of year 10 I have done have flew by. It's terrible.

I'm terrified..

'All that I need is this moment. This moment…'

this moment.

Happiness happens and things will change.

Stay for the night, stay with me forever.

Jordan, x.

c r e a t i v i t y

Block of creativity.

Creativity is blocked.

I don't know what to do, I feel somewhat useless.

Monster Children, issue 26. Probably the best 10 dollars I have ever spent.

at least we have our health.

While we're young, we do what we can, make the best of what we have and demonstrate our love like it's running out of fashion. Let us make a syndicate of youth, live free and leave the unimportant misery and heartbreak that surrounds us, behind. Don't leave your youth down in the drains, bring it up! You don't have it for long and it's not going to come back very easily. Enjoy it while you can. Live a life that's meant to be lived, love someone like you've never loved before and if it doesn't work out, love again. Love Happens, Happiness Happens. It comes back. Don't worry. You'll be fine and dandy. There will always be bad times within your life but erase them, like you erase a bad drawing on paper. But when bad times come, Just think;

At Least We Have Our Health.

Jordan, x.

Maroon 5

I can't believe I forgot how good they were.

Songs About Jane.

Their best album, perfect when your in the mood for it.

Jordan, x.

conjoined sentences

I'm looking up but letting love down. I'm becoming to think the more I try to get things right and sort out situations and confrontations, the more I get lost within my selfish thoughts of what I want and need. I'm getting most of the things I want but with the more I'm getting, the more I'm starting to lose sight of my own thoughts and pretty much my own life. My beliefs are becoming hazed and my standards are low. I'm hanging by a thread of the interception between right and wrong. I'm trying to float upon water, seeing to everyone's needs while struggling with my own. I don't want to sound stuck up, but sometimes I do feel like I'm taken for granted. It's not like I don't take stuff from people, it's the gratitude and attention I give to some people and I just don't seem to get it back. I'm probably just sounding like a whining bitch now, but I want to ask you something; What's the point in trying so hard in life when we all come out dead anyway?

Jordan, x.

snow patrol

You could be happy

Run

If you don't listen to Snow Patrol, there is something wrong with you, they are amazing.
(L)

Jordan, x.

Ear phones, music loud, I'm in no mans land.

had to delete the blog

it was too dramatic.

it was about me failing at life and it failing me back

yes indeedy it was...

Jordan, x.

you've left me speechless.

"Ra ah, Ra ah ah! Roma, Ro ma ma! Gaga, oh la la! I want your bad romance!"

Jordan, x.

holidays.

Once again guys,

end of term holidays are now on!

I have a feeling, that I will ruin my life sort of again..

Term one holidays did.

Yes indeed they did!

So, yeah, safety messages.

Drive safe, don't get too fat, don't hurt yourselves, don't die, don't get eaten by a killer whale, don't get one of your toes chopped off, don't get killed by Freddy Kruger in your dreams and if you're about too, do what the movie says, take all energy from your thoughts of Freddy, it should be sure too get rid of that douchebag. For a couple of years at least. All that jazz!

Also in the holidays;

do something interesting, change your look, tell me something that you do that the social norm wouldn't, live with no strings attached for a while. Come on guys, have a good time, we only live once... Unless you believe in the afterlife and all that stuff.

Love you guys.

Jordan, x.

yep

your bigger then might joe, well atleast you think so.

life once again you have disapointed me thats why im not bothering putting punctuation in this sentence really as i dont like you at the moment and you dont like me im not gunna put in the effort and make my writing look okay for the readers out there i really hope you dont die before this end of this i hate you life you always disapoint me thanks

why try so hard in life when we all come out dead anyway

it's such a good vibration!

The song 'Good Vibrations' that the t.v show Glee covered,

generally makes me happy on the inside.
But as soon as I take out my ear phones and collect my hearing,

I'm back in the real world.

The world where I'd rather run myself in to a wall and go in to a coma and dream about stuff then be in.

Weird, I know. But I don't care. I'm over it.

It's the same with dance,

as soon as I stop dancing and walk outside,

I'm once again, back in the real world.

You know what is really annoying about our world;

Humans strive for everything possible and put there life in to it,

but come on guys,

if you put your life work in to something that you probably won't even use,

it's practical suicide.

It's like smoking yourself to death, but with knowledge...

Jordan, x.

Status, a drama term.

I don't fit in anymore,

maybe I need to change?

I don't like school,

I never used to mind going and I did look forward to breaks.

Now I don't care if I'm in class, dancing at lunch times, even in detention,

it keeps me away from attempting to be social.

I don't even think I'm good enough anymore.

Yeah, not good enough,

that is what I'm used to anyway.
Why am I even complaining?

I've never really had many friends and I'm not used to it.

I don't like it.

I'm not used to have certain ways and standards to have friends.

I don't like myself anymore.

Jordan, x.

SOSE Speech

To be honest, a speech on music from the Middle Ages and its rapid change from then to now and the continuance of striving for knowledge from then to now, is pretty much irrelevant and not really going to help me out in future life, unless I get in to a intense conversation about music or knowledge in the Middle Ages. I know this may sound like any teenagers excuse to get out of a speech on a subject they don’t like, but honestly, people in my class, think about it, did this unit of work really help you?

Yes, some of you are interested in the armour and weapons area of this unit, but unfortunately, your not really going to get use those weapons or wear the armour in your lives, unless the world has some huge decline of technology and shuts down all of a sudden and we start living like they did. Why do we want learn about centuries of civilisation, when they died off because of some tuberculosis or some swollen glands, when they threw random accusations of people apparently being witches, getting sick was practically pay back for all your sins even though priests died from the so-called plague and punishment was torturing people like the main character out of the movie series ‘Saw’ would?

It honestly killed me on the inside when I saw the jousting competition shown on the TV’s ‘the 7pm Project’. It killed me on the inside because, we live in the 21^st century for a reason, if we wanted to joust, wear silly clothes and dance around to instrumental music like the silly people they looked to be, we wouldn’t have moved on from that time in civilisation. People made the inventions they did to get out of the mentality of living like that. No offence to be people who want to be different, but those people weren’t from the middle Ages, why would they attempt to relive them on an oval with a jousting competition, I don’t want to persuade people to change, but those people should embrace the future, we make these things for a reason, for humans to embrace, then we make better things. My opinion is; that they should get used to the 21^st century, because it’s highly doubtful that we will go back to jousting, burning witches and young people dying from flu’s.

In conclusion, the middle ages, were a very, very dark time for everyone and there stupidity.

Thanks for listening.

Dare me too ?

you know what I love..

Lady Gaga!

(L)

Jordan, x.

It's been a while... Again.

I honestly don't have much to tell you.
My life has been average lately.
Nothing too bad, except one minor thing, nothing too good.

I'm just generally not happy.

One thing I'm scared of is over-thinking of the future.

Which I am starting to do.

I am also scared of birds...

Future. Future. Future.
I can see a big failure ahead of me,

can't you?

Jordan, x.

lisa mitchell

Jordan, x

It's strange.
I just can't be bothered anymore,
with anything.
Yes, I said tiredness is a weakness,
but I'm constantly tired, I can't be bothered for anything anymore.
I think the tiredness is keeping up an image.
The image of pretending,
I'm pretending to be happy where I am.
Ugh. School. Friends. Family.
Fail.
I don't know if it's just me.
But ohwell, I don't care.
I'm not keeping up an image I have been lately,
I can't be fucked.
Fucking hell.
FUCK.

wonder.

Have you ever wondered;
why life is what it is?

It crosses my mind everyday.
People say; Life is what you make it.
I don't know if I can agree.
Because you don't make life to be disapointing,
but it still disapoints you.
I have no idea why.
I think from February,
my life is kind of been a bit wierd, different to what it used to be.
It is really kind of annoying.
I don't like it, but theres no way I can turn back time.
Nearly everyday I say to myself,
"If I could turn back time, I wouldn't of done that. I wouldn't of talked to this person" and so on.
I don't regret it, but I don't enjoy looking back on it.
However, mistakes help you realise not what to do later on in life, right?

This is going nowwhere,
I have no inspiration whatsoever and my imagination is at an all time low.
Well, I do have inspiration, but I just don't want to write about it.
I'm so boring lately, whats wrong with me?
I need something to happen, a look in to complexity or to take in the beauty from the simpler things?


Jordan, x.

To be completely honest with you;

Please, just build a Bridge to Terabithia and get over it.
You blame everyone else for your issues,
and you don't even care.
You turn things around and make the other person seem so much worse,
I would know.
I really think you should learn to stop doing this,
it just makes you seem arrogant.
Take the hint.
Do it,
I dare you.


Jordan, x.

i left my head and my heart on the dance floor

I said, in a few posts down, the one titled with all the bands.
'I'm fighting for love, I think, I have already lost.'
I kind of feel the need to expand on this a little,
but I don't know how exactly.

One of my bestfriends and me, have talked about this multiple times and I think she has got through to me now.
You have left it too late, way too late,
and being the idiot that I am, I've finally just realised.
I've wasted time.
I know I talk about it being fate for wasting time and it can be for the better, but this time, it wasn't.
I don't care anymore, but I still want too.
I'm contridicting myself now,
I need to stop writing, even thinking about it.
Brain dead.




Jordan, x.

fear.

When you try your best but you don't succeed, when you get what you want but not what you need, when you feel so tired but you can't sleep. Stuck in reverse.
- Coldplay - Fix you.

fix me?


Jordan, x.

It's been a little while.

The dawn is breaking, a light shining through, you're barely waking and I'm tangled up in you, yeah, I'm open, you're closed, where I follow, you'll go, I worry I won't see your face, light up again, even the best fall down sometimes, even the wrong words seem to rhyme, out of the doubt that fills my mind, I somehow find you and I collide, I'm quiet you know, you make a first impression, I've found I'm scared to know, I'm always on your mind, even the best fall down sometimes, even the stars refuse to shine, out of the back you fall in time, I somehow find you and I collide, don't stop here, I lost my place, I'm close behind, even the best fall down sometimes, even the wrong words seem to rhyme, out of the doubt that fills your mind. You finally find you and I collide.
- Howie Day - Collide.

I sit here thinking;
Why am I who I am?
What makes me, me?
Will I be somebody?
Or will I be a nobody?
Famous or Infamous?
Will I have a future?
Or will I have some average life, not living the way I've always wanted to?

As I attempt to ask the questions,
one comes in to my head,
Am I already that mediocre, average, satisfactory person I am afraid to become?
It upsets me, to think that.
I don't know,
what do you think?

I may not throw myself in to things and I always get nervous when I do something a little out of my square,
But I have no idea, if I actually am, what I think I am.
I know this may make no sense to you whatsoever.
I just want to break free, different is in these days,
and to actually be different, from the different that is in, you actually have to go extents.
Extents that I'm not willing too.

Maybe this is just one of my many problems within myself,
which all I can do is write about it.
Will it get me anywhere?
I don't think so, I actually don't know.
I don't know anything really anymore.
I know I may only be fourteen going on fifteen,
but thinking of the future worries me.
I'm not exactly academically smart,
or overally creative,
and my confidence is at a pretty low level.

So, I don't know.
Those three words seem to be the only ones in my vocabulary lately.
I don't want to think of future,
I love thinking of the past, but remembering about it is bad for you,
and the present, I don't know why they call it the present, it barely is one.
I don't know.


- Get me out of the mentality of mediocracy. Please.

Jordan, x.

fate

As you are reading this,
you are wasting your time.
As this page loaded up,
you wasted your time waiting for the page to load.
As you decided whether not to read this,
you wasted your time deciding.

We all waste our time,
but sometimes is for the better?
As you are wasting time,
something magical can happen,
or something tragic.
We never know what will happen in the next few hours,
minutes, or even seconds.
I believe it all happens for a reason,
wonderful, death defying even tragic events.
I believe in Fate,
and that its meant to happen.
If that apple didnt fall on Einsteins head,
we wouldn't know the laws of gravity,
and so on.

It's fate that you should listen to this;
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QFPwFH4Oy4Y&feature=fvw


Jordan, x.

snowpatrol,redhotchillipeppers,thekooks

As I'm just sitting here,
while trying to come to terms with what is happening within my family.
With music is booming down throughout my ears,
Snow Patrol at the moment, Set fire to the third bar, to be precise.
While sitting the same postion I intend too for the next couple hours,
I'm fighting for love, I think, I have already lost.
I'm missing my bestfriend, Taylor Pix, a lot.
Wait. The song changed, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, By The Way.
I have no idea what to do,
rjdnao = mixed up Jordan, and not just in the spelling way.
I need to do something,
accept change?
Wait. The song changed, The Kooks, Naive.
This song brings the obvious defination of Naive in to my head,
I love using the word in a sentence.
'Why do you have to be so naive?'
I'm boring I know.
Anyways.

Jade Readman;
You are my wonderwall.
You shine like a star and you can brighten up anyones day.






Jordan, x.

six seven eight

gaga's version of remembering cuddles in the kitchen, yeah.



Jordan, x.

No parents, I will not type my assignment.

Boys and girls of the world,
don't be who have to be,
be who you want to be.



I want to see your true colours show,
because they will be beautiful like a rainbow.
Break free of stereotyping,
stuff society, it's boring.




However, don't break the law,
and be rude about it.
Mediocracy should not be in your mind,
stand your ground and show who you are.
Lady Gaga.
Madonna.
Frank Sinartra.
Elvis.
Even Albert Einstein.
All put a whole new meaning to induviuality.



However, you don't need to be famous or a genius too,
just show who you are, and I ain't gunna try to change you.
You will be my shooting star, and my favourite.
Don't get defeated by limits,
and get pulled down by gravitational pulls.
Defy everything and anything,
Defy Gravity.



Jordan, x.

instead of doing my hospitality assignment;

You’ve got to build it up and then break down, give it a taste and drop your jaw to the ground, then you’ll know what to do and we’ll pick it up, pick it up and give it right back to you. Save your breath and get down with me, I never thought it would be this easy, to spread you like a disease, in this heat you’ll be sweating out your dignity. You'll always be such a catastrophe.
- Four Years Strong - Catastrophe.

Secret love, my escape, take me far far away, secret love, are you there, will you answer my prayer, please take me anywhere but here. Anywhere but here.
- Mayday Parade - Anywhere But Here.

When the stars are shining on you, when the street lights are far beyond you, when the dream lights are turning on, then you know where you are, when the stars are shining brighter, when your heart is beating lighter, when you love without desire, then you know who you are.
- Free Energy - Dream City.

Maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year and I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere, and this is my reaction, to everything I fear, cause I've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here.
- All Time Low - Weightless


On a lighter note;
I love Jade Readman <3
She's amazing. (:




Jordan, x.

Inside my head.

Wishing is for nerds, chumps and squares.
Just make it happen, I dare you.
Somehow, for me, the tv program Skins relates to this.


_______________________________________________________

Being tired is a sign of weakness,
'you can sleep when your dead baby'. - Agnus, Gossip Girl.





Jordan, x.

not so much a bad day, just a bad me.

I'm tired of trying, your teasing ain't enough, fed up of biding your time, when I don't get nothing back, and for and for and for, when I don't get nothing back. I'm tired.
- Adele


I'm honestly mind-blanked..
For once I have nothing to say.
Why bother?


Jordan, x.

twb

Your gaga obsession amazes me.

http://timothyywilliam.tumblr.com/
look, read and love.
i dare you.

newness.

From 6.30pm, 23rd May 2010, my new outlook on life is;

I'm fourteen and invinsible, I can do what I want.
The only person who will care for me all my life without fail is me.




- albert einstein; one awesome motherfucker.


jordan, x.

Instead of 'But', put 'However'...

As we go on throughout our human being life,
our dogs go throughout their K-9 life.
Also, as life supposedly moves in poetry, in rhythms and in syphonies and the good times and memories and we should all stop and breathe and stare at the scenery,
I am sitting at home, in my trackies and large tshirt from Factorie, waiting for my dad to finish hanging out washing so we can start watching a movie and writing randomised thoughts that suddenly come to my head.
As indecisive people cannot make up their mind what they are doing, decisive people are sticking to one decision and one only and do not think of any of change.
As politicians are coming out of the closet of their sexuality, the news is being nosey and getting more and more into their private lives and what they do; I kinda like how the news actually does that. No offence politicians privacy matters.
After the movie 'Casino Royale' was released, their was a huge reaction of the female public audience about how James Bond is suposedly not sexist anymore, but soon after 'Quantum of Solace' was released they were severly let down in that though. Sorry feminists of the world.
I'm going to add more to this list when I can be bothered.

Also,
I've come to think;
I really should do something interesting for a change,
any suggestions?




jordan, x.

fading.

I'm fading away.
In to my void filled with nothingness.
My life is turing black and white.
I used to have excitement.
But lately it's just the same;
Regret, hurt, worries, intimidation.
Eyes strike through me like daggers.
It is kinda depressing on my behalf.
As I am fading in to my black and white life,
I think I should take this time to tell you my life plan;

Finish school, with an average OP in either Brisbane or Perth, get a job in a fashion shop, become manager of that shop, get all the money I need and move to Melbourne, go in to the music industry or fashion industry, make more money, move to London, live there for I don't know how long with regular holidays to Australia to see family. Then move back to Melbourne when older and stay there for sun, beach and babes.
(L) Perfect Life




Jordan, x.

P.s - You can join me if you want?

i don't know.

forget what i had here before.
nothingness has taken over again.
yeahkaybye.

Jordan, x.

p.s; I know I said subliminal messages suck, but yeah, I don't care.

Okay;

I'll admit that I have been a dickhead to some people lately, and mostly one person.
Who is meant to be my bestfriend.
Sorry.


Seriously; I am... anger solves nothing, 'blogger' solves nothing, and from now on, I'm going to stop writing those things about people. Subliminimal message suck. I use them all the time, but the post I had before, was not called for, at all.

______________________________________________________

LOL Most of that was a complete lie.

I don't care about my subliminal messages anymore.

Not like many people read this.

hometown glory.

Happy anniversary Readman's.
Well done for making it through four years of averageness, arguements, stress and fun at times.
Australia's great..

But there is something I want to ask,
Can I go home now?


Jordan, x.

be ok.

"I just want to be okay, be okay, be okay, I just wanna be okay today,"
- Ingrid Michaelson; Be ok.

I actually just want to be okay.
Today.


Jordan, x.

This is me.

You know your kind of inconsiderate Jordan Readman. And no, i'm not too pussy to tell this to your face. I just don't want to upset you, because i fucking care. Unlike you. You're such a fucking dickfuck. How do you sleep at night you using son of a cunt?
- Annoynamous Formspring Message.

I don't know who you are, or who you think you are, annoynamously messaging me over formspring, practically abusing how much of a bad person I am. I know I'm a bad person, I know I'm inconsiderate, but I don't know how the fuck I have used you. I care about the people who care about me, and if you cared about me, I think you would've done something, other then this, to abuse me and we could actually sort something out. But the thing is; what gives you the fucking right to abuse me, to tell me I've used you or someone else, and saying how do I sleep at night? Fucking hell. If you don't actually come to me and sort this out, I will have lost so much respect for you, you wouldn't be my friend anymore. Fuck you. Fuck your life. I don't care about you anymore, and you don't need to care about me. I hope you fall in a drain and break you leg, and never come out.
Thanks.

Jordan, x.

What Does A Diploma In Mathematics Get You?

Does anyone know?
Studying maths in university, joy.
Do you become a mathematician?
But what exactly do you do when you become a mathematician?
This was just a random question I thought of in dance.
I actually don't care, because it doesn't really concern me, I'm not good at maths, and I don't think I ever will be, sorry all mathematicians out there.

Anyways.
You know what I really want to be when I grow up.
A self centred columnist for a good news paper, like John Grogan, (the guy that Owen Wilson plays in Marley and Me.) That movie is fantastic by the way.
I want to be a columnist because, well so I've been told;
I'm a self sentered, melodramatic, hating, uncaring, rude teenager, and thats what columnist do best.
They write about how how much they hate the stuff they have, 'I hate the T.V brand ...' 'Today I hate my wife and children' 'You know what I hate ... '
That is all they write about, and I'm good at writing about what I hate, and because I'm so self-centred and I need to get over my own problems and care about others for once, I think I'm fit for this job.
I just need to be good at english.

I love John Grogan.
He has his own blog, he writes wonderful books, he's a columnist, and he is just all around awesome. :)
Website/Blog - http://www.johngroganbooks.com/blog/index.html


Jordan, x.

Respect.

Respect, what is respect?

No one knows.
I think as a society, our respect for the world, for nature, for other human beings, for blacks, for white, for asians, for indians and every other culture has gone and jumped off a bridge, and I doubt that it will come back for a very, very long time.
Terrorism and wars have played a big part in this loss of respect.
You see someone who is from Indian ethnicity you will be like 'oh that guy has a bomb' and laugh about it, no offence guys but I think that is really fucken disrespectful, but as the hiporcritical person I am, I would probably laugh with them. But just in the public, you see a group of Asians, you will automatically say something about it. Even in local society, respect has gone out the window for teenagers, as well as respect for adults and seniors.

The reason I'm saying all of this stuff is;
Please, just respect someones decisions, and if they debatable, have a civilised debate about it, not an arguement.

Disrepect someone, they will disrespect you back, don't forget that.

I know I'm not the nicest person ever, but I will speak the truth. So, just be civil, don't cause stuff, be respectful and presentable.

I'm not being a preacher, saying respect your elders or anything like that, but no one likes a disrespectful kid, being a little shit and fucking around, it just pisses some people off.

One exception; If someone is rude to you, you don't have to be rude back, just don't treat them as you normally would with someone(with respect). I'm sick of fights between my female friends, and it just fucks me off. Just, either be civil with them, you don't have to be their friend, or be friends with them. Please.

What I mean by respect is, not seeing by the persons every need, but just be nice and smile and say hi. Don't be a douche and pretend there not there.

I know this blog probably made no sense, and I don't care, I'm bored on a Friday night, and what do you expect me to do, play scrabble? I dont think so.

Jordan, x.

The floor is shaking in this Disco Heaven.

I don't really know what to say.
I just feel like writing, like the melodramatic person I am.
Sorry for being so melodramatic, and wasting your time with reading pointless sorry notes to people who don't even care about it.
But I like it.
I'm not a pen and paper type of guy,
I don't know what type of guy I am lately.
I don't know what to do with myself.
I get nervous walking up through the area's in the school.
The intimidating eyes of the older students stare right through me, or so it seems like they do.
Even walking through my area I get a little imtimidated.
I hate those guys who think there cool, and call me a 'faggot', I wish they would all just leave the school, they are not wanted there, by teachers, by students, they don't offer anything to the school except its bad reputation.
I've been told, time and time again, 'oh there just jealous of what you accomplish' 'they will get know where in life if they be like are' BLAH BLAH FUCKEN BLAH. I don't care if they don't get anywhere in life, I honestly don't care if they do, but they certantly not jealous, who would be jealous of me, insecure, bullied, 'lame', 'faggoty', Jordan Readman. I hate them all.
I know parents say 'don't let them get to you' 'tell them to go away' blah, but how can they not fucking get to me, they taunt me, they say shit about me, and soon I will crack and say shit to them, and you know the outcome of that, I will get fucking bashed. So I have to control myself.
Yet again, I hate them all.
But I think they are the insecure ones, they have so many problems in there life they don't want to share, they decide to make fun of others, I know I may sound like a primary school student, but I know it's true.

ANYWAY!

Yeah, I don't know what to write now.
I hate people.

Jordan, x.

Siobhan Lewis, how I love you.

shibanga says:
i kinda imagine the taser looking kinda the a lifesaver, and just like being a ninja except the lifesaver would taser people.

jord; genius playlists are quite genius. says:
Hahaha a lifesaver ?
like the lolly ?

shibanga says:
no , i mean like starwars, are they called lifesavers?

jord; genius playlists are quite genius. says:
lightsabers
*
shibanga says:
....
this conversation is going in a myspace bulliten




We were talking about going to the Justin Bieber concert with a taser, and tasering all these chicks who got in the way, unfortunatley Siobhan doesn't know starwars, or even common knowledge too well.

Love you Shibanga. (L)

SongQuote.

You need it you get it you got it,
and then when you got it you won’t even want it.
I been down this road every sign just says stop it,
but like an obsession can’t keep myself off it.

- Mr Mysterious.
- Vanessa Amorosi.

It sounds cool on the song.

Jordan, x.

Bring me flowers, and talk for hours.

I have a couple of special friends at the moment, who I think are just wonderful.
But this is dedicated to my very special Homegirl.



We were at a gatho, and you were tipsy when we met. We went through the night fighting over a champaigne bottle saying, 'Champaigne is not for little boys!'. Cleaning pasta sauce off your perfect, slappable ass was the highlight of my night;). We talked on msn, and came up with the names Homeboy and Homegirl for eachother, and we went on from there.

You told me your rules for when you are drinking and showed me how awesome of a writer you are. You helped with my school work and called me your 'bubba boy'. We argue about how young I am and how old you are, and which of us is cuter then the other. You made a playlist named after me with all the music I've sent you, and named your fish's Chester Homeboy and Issac Homegirl. R.I.P Chester Homeboy(L).

We take the best pictures together, and we've been told we would make beautiful babies. You are the most halarious tipsy person and I couldn't care less if you get your slut on, because I will join you. Just don't break your rules. You never run out of things to talk about and my face apparently lights up when I see you and I smile like a douchebag. Haha.

Stefanie Tremble. ♥
You are creative, smart, funny, a good as dancer, a literal thinker(whatever that means), and best of all, the cutest person I have met. Don't let anyone ever take those qualities from you, but if anyone tries to change you, I will stab them in the face. I'm so glad we became friends and I really hope we are friends throughout school and onwards. You are pure awesomeness. ♥






♥ you.
Jordan, x.
P.S; You rock, don't ever change.
P.P.S; Five minutes. ;) ♥

Lady fuckking Gaga ! (L)

I love Lady Gaga.
I reckon she is actually a Rolemodel.
Be Different.
Do what you want.
Keep your Pokerface on in tight situations.
Be So Happy You Could Die.
Dance In The Dark.
Keep your Fashion sense original.
Want people's Bad Romance
Don't give into Paper Gangsta's.
Be Beautiful and Dirty Rich.
Stay in Disco Heaven.
And most of all,
Be Wonderful.

Let's have some fun, this beat is sick, I wanna take a ride on your disco stick. Don't think too much just bust that stick, I wanna take a ride on your disco stick.


Jordan, x.
Cherry cherry boom booom.

friends.

Friend One.
I miss you, I can't wait to see you. We had so much in common, and we still do. We will forever be bestfriends, and I could never, ever, forget you. (L)

Friend Two.
Halarious. Trustworthy. Helpful. From 2008 to a lifetime of happy memories. (L)

Friend Three.
You can lie, you can be a bitch to people you wanna be, you left, we became good friends. I'm not affected by what you do, and I don't care. 'your a vindictive little bitch, truth be told'. (L)

Friend Four.
I can come to you for anything, and I could trust you with my life. (L)

Friend Five.
We have our up's and down's, but I really hope our friendship doesn't end like this. Please, don't let. You will always be my bestfriend. (L)

Friend Six.
You did amaze me. We need to build to that again. Please. (L)

Friend Seven.
All you've done is help. Sorry. (L)

Friend Eight.
You bitch, you cry, you are wonderful. (L)

Friend Nine.
Cute. Cute. Cute. (L)

Friend Ten.
Bright blonde extensions, make-up, you are the opposite to 'scene kids', your laugh makes me laugh, (L).


Stay with me forever. (L)
Please.


Jordan, x.

Dear certain people.

Sorry.


sorry im not perfect
sorry im not true
sorry im not happy
sorry im not you
sorry im not there
sorry im not that extraordinary
sorry im just ordinary
sorry im outspoken
sorry i dont share
sorry i dont need you
sorry im never there
sorry im not comfortable
sorry your not the same
sorry that i changed
sorry im not game
sorry im here
sorry i wont be gone
sorry you dont care for me
sorry im in the wrong
sorry for what i did
sorry im just running away from it all
sorry im not me anymore
i know you don't care for me anymore
but i will be forever sorry.
Just Sorry.



If your one of the people who this is too, and you read it, I think you will know it's to you.


Jordan, x.

Sorry. Im serious.

Im sorry if I'm acting like such a prick lately,
and it affects you.
Bad things happen.
I KNOW that they SHOULDN'T get to ME like this.
But, eh, it just does.

Sorry.

Jordan, x.

okay.

Ignore what I had here before.
Please.
I wasn't okay about everything.


Jordan, x.

noth-

ing

Kesha Quote.

I'm sick and tired of hearing all about my life,

from other bitches with all of your lies,

wrapped up so tight.

So maybe you should shut your mouth,

Shut your mouth,

Shut your fucking mouth.

- Ke$ha.

:) Agreeing with quote, completely.

Jordan, x.

I miss;

I miss being younger,
I miss being treated like I'm 7,
I miss England,
I even miss Perth,
I miss the snow,
I miss my small home town,
I miss frost,
I miss snow,
I miss the beach,
I miss my bestfriend,
I miss being innocent,
I miss people taking time out of there day to talk to me,
I miss my normal knee(never dislocate your knee cap, ever),
I miss doing stuff without a care,
I miss being known as a normal student,
I miss dancing,
I miss people not caring what I do,
I miss people not caring what I say,
I miss how people were in grade 8,
I miss not being known for being the scummy grade,
I miss not being known as 'gay dancer' of my grade,
I miss not having my friends influence by drugs,
I miss not having alcohol,
I miss not caring about the way I look,
I miss everything about being young,
I miss it when people would say there seeing a movie this weekend, not having a drinking session,
I miss when the only thing on a guys mind wasn't 'pwning' some chick on the weekend,
I miss it when going to the park was a normal activity,
I miss my parents not suspecting I'm gunna have sex with my female friends,
I miss swearing being dangerous,
I miss my old gaming consoles,
I miss when people didnt want to get suspended,
I miss it when facebook, myspace and msn were not peoples lives,
I miss people saying 'never doing drugs'
In the end;
I miss my old life,
I miss my old friends,
I miss not having a care,
I miss being young,
but most of all,
I miss me.


Jordan, x.

The Fray(L)

The Fray is an American four-piece piano-rock band from Denver, Colorado Formed in 2002 by schoolmates Isaac Slade and Joe King, the band achieved mainstream success with the release of their debut album, How to Save a Life in 2005, which was certified double platinum. The band released their second self-titled album in 2009. The album debuted at number-one on the Billboard charts and was certified gold in the United States, Australia and Canada.

In both albums, the band focus there songs most on life's problems and issues. Common themes include troubled relationships, growing up, the problem of evil, war and happiness. The honest and emotional nature of the lyrics has also had critics labeling The Fray as emo, comparing them to mainstream emo acts like 'Jimmy Eat World' and 'Something Corporate'.

Recommended - syndicate, trust me, she is, heartless(kanye west cover), vienna.
they are truely amazing.

jordan, x.

leave.

i dont want to feel like this anymore,
i dont want anything anymore.
i'm falling in to a black hole,
so i can feel nothing.
i did have feelings,
they are going to leave me now.
i just wanna go to that black hole
and stay there forever.
i dont know when i will be okay.
i dont know if i ever will be.
i just want my soul to leave me now,
no soul, means no feelings.
how did this happen,
i dont know.
i just wanna,

leave.

Regina Spektor(L)

Regina Spektor was born in Moscow, USSR in 1980 to a musical family. Her father, Ilya Spektor, is a photographer and amateur violinist. Her mother, Bella Spektor, was a music professor in a Russian college of music and now teaches at a public elementary school in Mount Vernon, New York.


Check her stuff out, she's amazing.
Recommended - Samson, Us, Hero.

jordan, x.