Saturday, June 26, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
But as soon as I take out my ear phones and collect my hearing,
Friday, June 18, 2010
Why am I even complaining?
Thursday, June 17, 2010
To be honest, a speech on music from the Middle Ages and its rapid change from then to now and the continuance of striving for knowledge from then to now, is pretty much irrelevant and not really going to help me out in future life, unless I get in to a intense conversation about music or knowledge in the Middle Ages. I know this may sound like any teenagers excuse to get out of a speech on a subject they don’t like, but honestly, people in my class, think about it, did this unit of work really help you?
Yes, some of you are interested in the armour and weapons area of this unit, but unfortunately, your not really going to get use those weapons or wear the armour in your lives, unless the world has some huge decline of technology and shuts down all of a sudden and we start living like they did. Why do we want learn about centuries of civilisation, when they died off because of some tuberculosis or some swollen glands, when they threw random accusations of people apparently being witches, getting sick was practically pay back for all your sins even though priests died from the so-called plague and punishment was torturing people like the main character out of the movie series ‘Saw’ would?
It honestly killed me on the inside when I saw the jousting competition shown on the TV’s ‘the Project’. It killed me on the inside because, we live in the 21st century for a reason, if we wanted to joust, wear silly clothes and dance around to instrumental music like the silly people they looked to be, we wouldn’t have moved on from that time in civilisation. People made the inventions they did to get out of the mentality of living like that. No offence to be people who want to be different, but those people weren’t from the middle Ages, why would they attempt to relive them on an oval with a jousting competition, I don’t want to persuade people to change, but those people should embrace the future, we make these things for a reason, for humans to embrace, then we make better things. My opinion is; that they should get used to the 21st century, because it’s highly doubtful that we will go back to jousting, burning witches and young people dying from flu’s.
In conclusion, the middle ages, were a very, very dark time for everyone and there stupidity.
Thanks for listening.
Dare me too ?
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
My life has been average lately.
Nothing too bad, except one minor thing, nothing too good.
I can see a big failure ahead of me,
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
I just can't be bothered anymore,
Yes, I said tiredness is a weakness,
but I'm constantly tired, I can't be bothered for anything anymore.
I think the tiredness is keeping up an image.
The image of pretending,
I'm pretending to be happy where I am.
Ugh. School. Friends. Family.
I don't know if it's just me.
But ohwell, I don't care.
I'm not keeping up an image I have been lately,
I can't be fucked.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Have you ever wondered;
why life is what it is?
It crosses my mind everyday.
People say; Life is what you make it.
I don't know if I can agree.
Because you don't make life to be disapointing,
but it still disapoints you.
I have no idea why.
I think from February,
my life is kind of been a bit wierd, different to what it used to be.
It is really kind of annoying.
I don't like it, but theres no way I can turn back time.
Nearly everyday I say to myself,
"If I could turn back time, I wouldn't of done that. I wouldn't of talked to this person" and so on.
I don't regret it, but I don't enjoy looking back on it.
However, mistakes help you realise not what to do later on in life, right?
This is going nowwhere,
I have no inspiration whatsoever and my imagination is at an all time low.
Well, I do have inspiration, but I just don't want to write about it.
I'm so boring lately, whats wrong with me?
I need something to happen, a look in to complexity or to take in the beauty from the simpler things?
You blame everyone else for your issues,
and you don't even care.
You turn things around and make the other person seem so much worse,
I would know.
I really think you should learn to stop doing this,
it just makes you seem arrogant.
Take the hint.
I dare you.
Monday, June 7, 2010
'I'm fighting for love, I think, I have already lost.'
I kind of feel the need to expand on this a little,
but I don't know how exactly.
One of my bestfriends and me, have talked about this multiple times and I think she has got through to me now.
You have left it too late, way too late,
and being the idiot that I am, I've finally just realised.
I've wasted time.
I know I talk about it being fate for wasting time and it can be for the better, but this time, it wasn't.
I don't care anymore, but I still want too.
I'm contridicting myself now,
I need to stop writing, even thinking about it.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
- Howie Day - Collide.
I sit here thinking;
Why am I who I am?
What makes me, me?
Will I be somebody?
Or will I be a nobody?
Famous or Infamous?
Will I have a future?
Or will I have some average life, not living the way I've always wanted to?
As I attempt to ask the questions,
one comes in to my head,
Am I already that mediocre, average, satisfactory person I am afraid to become?
It upsets me, to think that.
I don't know,
what do you think?
I may not throw myself in to things and I always get nervous when I do something a little out of my square,
But I have no idea, if I actually am, what I think I am.
I know this may make no sense to you whatsoever.
I just want to break free, different is in these days,
and to actually be different, from the different that is in, you actually have to go extents.
Extents that I'm not willing too.
Maybe this is just one of my many problems within myself,
which all I can do is write about it.
Will it get me anywhere?
I don't think so, I actually don't know.
I don't know anything really anymore.
I know I may only be fourteen going on fifteen,
but thinking of the future worries me.
I'm not exactly academically smart,
or overally creative,
and my confidence is at a pretty low level.
So, I don't know.
Those three words seem to be the only ones in my vocabulary lately.
I don't want to think of future,
I love thinking of the past, but remembering about it is bad for you,
and the present, I don't know why they call it the present, it barely is one.
I don't know.
- Get me out of the mentality of mediocracy. Please.